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Allee sonn
08 February 2006 @ 05:34 pm
hey guys, new journal:
jadore_allee
add me. Immediately!

it's also my new screen name on AIM (jadore allee)
come say hi :)
 
 
Allee sonn
08 February 2006 @ 04:10 pm
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Allison is mostly likely to say the out-of-date phrase:
What choo talkin bout?
To:
Charles Darwin



Why?
Because they got drunk and tried to pretend that they were you
Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com
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Oh, Darwin...
 
 
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: the news
 
 
Allee sonn
08 February 2006 @ 09:25 am
Awful. I fell asleep at 10:30 last night on the couch. I’m retarded. Now, this wouldn’t be a big deal, but I didn’t even wake up for Saved by the Bell. I’m pissed about that. So my day is going to be spent teaching myself guitar. I’ve already decided. I really hate today a lot. I’m wicked lonely, I’m sick of being home alone all day, and I want to find a job. I mean, yea, I need money, but I’m fucking bored. I can’t take it anymore, I’m going crazy.
I miss Janine a lot. I don’t like that my best friend lives 2 hours away. That’s the only reason I really want to move back to the city, so I can see her more. But then I think about it, and I really don’t want to live in the city. I want to be able to drive, and not be as cold in the winter. There’s pros and cons, I guess I’m just going to have to weigh them and figure out exactly what I want to be doing with my life right now. I wish I wasn’t so indecisive. I seriously have no idea what I want when it comes to anything. I don’t even know what I want to major in anymore. I could major in journalism, but it’s such a competitive field. I could major in philosophy, but where’s that getting me? A job as a philosophy teacher? No thanks. I really have no desire to finish 18+ years of school just to go back and teach people who hated it just as much as I did. I don’t know if I want to major in art, but that’s something I have to decide REALLY soon. I just can’t do something I don’t have a passion for, or I won’t do it. Kind of like how I never went to math class cause I hated it so much. Fuck quantitative reasoning. That class blew.
I don’t know if I’m going to the show on the 16th anymore. I really want to, cause it’s an awesome lineup, but fuck! It’s local bands, and it’s 15 bucks? Seriously, it costs me at least 25 or 30 bucks to get to and from Mass to begin with, and 15 on top of that? Hi, I’m poor right now. You know, that whole not having a job thing kind of means I have no money as well. So we’ll see. I’ll talk to the Skeptics, or maybe These Green Eyes and see if I can sit and be merch bitch for the night and maybe they’ll bring me in with them. That would be neat.
I’ve been listening to Kelly Clarkson, Hanson, and Matchbox 20 all day. How dorky am I? My poor puppy looks so bored and sad. I let him outside for a while, but he wanted to come back in, and now some dumb dog is walking up and down the street, and every time he gets in front of our house Cooper barks like a maniac.
Okay, I’m done updating for now. Maybe later if something interesting actually happens in my life, which probably won’t happen.
Blah.


Crystal is my hero )
 
 
Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: the velvet underground--what goes on
 
 
Allee sonn
07 February 2006 @ 05:40 pm
Umm I love my new layout.
It's bright, it's called...lemon grapefruit tangerine or something, and I LOVE grapefruit, so yum.
Plus I'm bright and cheery *tee hee* Uhh...right.
Hahaha I'm such a goof.
 
 
Allee sonn
07 February 2006 @ 04:41 pm
My new layout is hard to read, and the friends page is near impossible.
But guess what? I don't care at all. One bit. Nope. I'm exhausted since I got up at 4 am, and fixing my livejournal layout is seriously the last thing on my list.
Maybe I'll have less livejournal lurkers this way too :P Not that I really care.

We're watching some show on tv about this dude that's trying to find a condo, or something. He is such a fag, and I want to punch him. "This room is really blue. those windows are really square. This room is really red. That carpet is really white." Yea. No fucking shit. Shut your mouth. It was a cute condo too. Wicked big, high ceilings, colorful. Guys should not be able to choose where the family is going to live.
Worst.taste.ever.

I need to figure out what the hell I'm doing within the next couple of months.

Oh! I got a lot done today. I guess I can actually make a decent update for once.

So I actually don't know what the hell I'm doing for the next couple of months. I think I'm gonna live home, get a job (seriously, I need one. Not only am I poor, but I'm broke, and I'm living without a car which makes me wanna freak out really bad), get a car. I called the insurence company today and talked to the guy about the kind of car I want, and he put in a random vin number of the celica model/year/make and factored in my accidents and tickets, and it's gonna be about 96 bucks a month. The cheapest my insurence EVER was, was around 120 a month, and it was when I was on my parents insurence. So 96 a month? Fuck.yes. That's seriously so doable. If I don't finance a car and just pay in full for it, I'll be paying 96 a month, and seriously, what else to I have to pay for? gas, cigarettes, food if I randomly decide I'm hungry, which I barely ever am, and booze. Gas is wicked expensive right now (and my x button is bitching out hcore) but oh well. Then I can save for paying for school in the fall or spring, depending on when I go. Which leads into my next issue.

I don't know when I wanna go to school. I finished my app for sva completely today, besides the essay, which I haven't even started yet, and finishing my portfolio, which I feel like it's NEVER gonna get done. UGH. I'm so irritated with art school shit. So I think I'm gonna skip out on photo and major in journalism. Which they effing offer at Umass Amherst, which is sweet, cause usually it's only a minor. Oh, if I could major in that I might get really excited. But I've also been thinking about majoring in philosophy, since I LOVE it. They also offer that there. Another cool thing, 80% of applicants are admitted, SAT scores are right around what I got, (but I'm seriously considering taking them again since now there's an essay on it, and since I kick ass at essays, I should be able to get a higher score no problem) and it's not even as expensive as sva. Plus, I can have a car on campus, which is something I definitely want. So if I lived on campus I wouldn't have to pay for an apartment, which is neat. The only reason I'd ever want to live off campus is because a lot of schools wont let you have a car there first year, and that's something I think I absolutely need. Especially since I NEED to have a job while I'm there. No doubt about that one.
The only downside to Umass? I can't go there until the spring. The fucking application was due by feb 1st. Maybe if I wasn't such a dumbass I would have started it a whole lot earlier, like when I was still at Marymount, or maybe right after I left there, oh, a month and a half ago. Well, at least I'm getting motivated now, right?
So I did a lot of the Umass application today, and when I went to go look at the essay questions so I could start it, or at least mull over some ideas for it, there wasn't a fucking section! So I talked to Ryan, and made sure he had to do an essay for it. He told me to call the school and see what the hell the deal was with there being NO space for me to do an essay. UGH. So I called the admissions office and told them, and the lady seriously was such a dumbass. How do people who are so mentally retarded work at colleges and universities? I mean, at least have to graduate HIGH SCHOOL to get a job somewhere like that, please for christs sake. So she said she would have someone call me back when they got in, and someone would let me know what the problem is and what I should do.
I called them around...Oh, I don't know, 11 this morning? Have I heard back from them? No. Way to be wicked unreliable. Oh well.

So Mom thinks I should try to go to school in the fall, but I think I'm just gonna see if I get into Umass, which I'm really hoping I do (I shouldn't have a problem, I'm pretty sure) and for the next 11 months just get the rest of my shit out of the way. As in, a car and paying off my 30,000 dollars in debt. Stupid Marymount, I hate you. Wasted 3 months of my life and cost me 10,000 per month. Grrr.

I don't even want to bother applying for a student loan right now, since my credit should be kind of fixed by next year, I'm hoping.

Alright, this is wicked long, and I'm pretty sure I hate how uncomfortable my layout is, so I lied. I'm gonna change it.
I'm glad I have my life for the next year at least going in some direction now. I just need to push myself, and I know this is something I really wanna do.
And I'm thinking I can just do photo on the side.
Alright, /story of my life. I probably just bored you all to death. :P
 
 
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: tvvvvvvv
 
 
Allee sonn
07 February 2006 @ 03:27 am
Daily Fortune

Tell that someone that you love them.

Horoscope
Virgo
You can feel a change, and you just know it's going to be a big one. The pace of life -- yours in particular, if you were to take a poll among your friends -- has picked up considerably. Needless to say, you have endless energy, but ordinarily, you'd feel guilty if you stayed up too late. Toss those feelings out the window, right now. It's all part of what's coming.
 
 
Allee sonn
06 February 2006 @ 10:44 am
all I want to do is take a motherfucking shower. I should have showered in Wolcott, but like I was supposed to know our water was being fixed today. So now there are people digging in my front yard, fixing shit, and I can't take a shower till they leave. I seriously am SO digusting. Thankfully I haven't left the house at all since I got home from Wolcott. But I feel so gross, since I'm kind of a freak about being clean. ahhhhhhh leave already dammit!

Panch is getting his tires replaced right now, and I think we're hanging out after that. But only if I get to shower. I refuse to leave the house feeling this nasty. My hair smells like beer and weed. YUM. And there's still product in it, so right now, technically, I could make myself have a sick fro, or maybe even make it all stand up straight. That could be neat. :P
I'm a dork.

And I love cranberry juice.
Blah.
 
 
Current Mood: GROSSSSS
Current Music: co&ca
 
 
Allee sonn
06 February 2006 @ 04:19 am
Okay, this is million one-liner posts a day, but I just had to reiterate the fact that Saved by the Bell is by far the best show in the ENTIRE world, and I am really wicked excited that I got up early enough to watch it.
I can tell today is going to be pretttty awesome already.
 
 
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: saved by the bell
 
 
Allee sonn
06 February 2006 @ 02:06 am
I forgot how much I fucking LOVE dane cook.

"JESUS CHRIST TIMMY! DO NOT FLOAT ABOVE ME WHEN I'M DYING IN THE ABYSS!"

lovelovelove

I was gonna go to sleep, now I have to listen to 3 hours of Dane Cook. Then maybe I'll sleep :P
GOD I'm a dork.
 
 
Current Mood: super excited
Current Music: Dane Cook
 
 
Allee sonn
06 February 2006 @ 01:23 am
[*So come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars*]

I love Saves the Day more than anything.
How is life so fucking sweet?
 
 
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: saves the day
 
 
Allee sonn
05 February 2006 @ 11:35 pm
Dear Allison,
Here is your single's love horoscope
for Monday, February 6:

Today's work issues offer a great opportunity for you to practice your new power and self-assuredness. Step out in front, and don't be afraid to take charge of a confused situation. You'll gain admiration from many people.

[life is good]
 
 
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: the skeptics--behind closed doors
 
 
Allee sonn
05 February 2006 @ 04:43 pm
Football is love )
 
 
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: saves the day
 
 
Allee sonn
05 February 2006 @ 01:36 pm
This weekend was fucking awesome. Friday during the day was pretty terrible, because I had an anxiety attack for the first time in about a year. I didn't eat anything all day friday, sans some espresso beans and a espresso/coffee/milk/chocolate drink, and those two things only added to the anxiety by making me jittery and feeling like shit. So all day I didn't know what was going on for the show, where I was going, how I was getting there, or home, or where I was going afterwards. Around 5 or so I talked to Danielle, and she said she'd be able to bring me home from Wolcott if I either didn't have a ride or wasn't staying there.
So I ended up going to the show, and hanging out with Rob for most of the night since a girl was making me feel out of place and awkward, and it was fucking dumb. I met jrapp when I got there! Yay! And then went over and hung out with the skeptics. I didn't know this 'til last night, but Kevin and Aly from Vt are dating. Random? Yes. Cute? Of course. So the skeptics went on 20 mins after I got there, and I rocked out to their set a whole lot. They playing stupid home sweet home, and I was not psyched. They didn't play distress calls, and once again, I was not psyched. But the rest of the setlist was good. They played loaded lipstick and behind closed doors, so I was kind of psyched. But they played really freakin' well. Brandon complimented them this morning when we woke up and said they played really well which was cool.
So after the set Rob asked me if I wanted to hear the new acoustic stuff they just finished recording and got the cds for today, so we went out to the van and listened to them. They're actually really good. I was impressed. So then SIGNALtheESCAPE went on. I stood more in the back, cause I hate being that groupie that stands right up front and SCREAMS out all the words to all the songs while jumping around like a jackass. Though I did have fun watching said girls do so :P

After that I hung outside for a while, smoked some cigarettes, hung out with the skeptics/mark and jenny for a little. Rob and Jrapp met and shared pizza and it was wicked cute. Jrapp and Brandon made fun of me for a while, then we all decided we were going back to Wolcott. So since I was freezing and nothing was coming out of standing outside the van, Alicia, Jrapp, Ivan, Kipinto and I piled into the van. Tom and Mark came over a couple mins later and we left, since everyone else was riding in Adam's car.

The car ride was kind of funny, since people kept saying "are we there yet? how much longer?" and seriously, it was like a 20 minute ride, so it reminded me of little kids, and it was cute and fun. By the way, fall of troy/saves the day = <3333

Alright, so we finally got back to Tom and Brandon's, and immediately started drinking, which was neat. Brandon was on top of the beer situation, since he was officially hired as my beer wench Friday night. Woohoo :P I talked to Danielle, and Tom gave her directions, and she showed up with some RANDOM people that I didn't know, and I felt kind of weird since they weren't my friends, and they didn't know anyone, and it was just kind of strange. I guess they felt weird too, cause they left pretty soon after they got there. I wanted Danielle to come back, but she ended up going home and told me if I needed a ride she would just come back to Tom's house. Jrapp and Josh made a pretty sweet, ghetto gravity bong. It was really hilarious to watch Josh hit it, cause right after he hit it, he hit the floor. "That's what I'm talkin' about!"
So basically Friday we all got drunk BEYOND comprehension. By the end of the night I couldn't stand, or see straight at all, and Tom and I kept having the most hilarious conversations that neither of us can really remember now. Everyone passed out around 4 or 5, so when Brandon and I decided to go to sleep every available place was taken. Where did we end up? Oh, on the floor. I was so wicked uncomfortable, so was he, and we were both FREEZING. But I got a pillow, and that's better than nothing. Ivan passed out on Brandon's bed :( But whatever.

So we woke up around 11:30 Saturday, and I felt like SHIT. The guys had to get up and go to some crazy birthday party for some girl that's obsessed with them, and they were surprising her or something? So they had to be out of the house by like, 12:45. I had the WORSTTTT hangover I've ever had. I couldn't even move, I felt terrible. Right when I woke up I ran upstairs cause I thought I was going to throw up, but I ended up being okay after I sat on the coach for a minute. There was a little bit of really fucking gay text message drama when I woke up, and I was really not psyched to be in the middle of that, again. But anyway, Josh, Jrapp, maybe Dana? and I chilled at the house, watching movies. I laid on Brandon's bed and passed out hcore till 2. When I woke up Tom was home, and Mark, Ivan and Brandon had left for the video shoot they were doing. I can't even remember the band right now. So we put in another movie, and by 3 I was asleep again. His bed is wicked comfy. I woke up at 5, and Jrapp got me orange juice (!!!) and after I drank that I felt SO much better. "It's your orange juice, just chug it back!"-Tom :P
Right when I woke up at 5 we started drinking again. Jrapp and I bought the beer, he and tom came home with two 30 racks of Pabst. "Emo beer". So we started drinking, and then Jrapp and Tom had the ingenious idea of watching all three LOTR movies back to back. Tom, Jrapp and I decided we were a team, so if one of us made it through all three it was good enough. Jrapp was OUT before the first movie was even over, haha.

Brandon got home around 9:30 and was wicked tired, but toughed it out, drank a ton of beer, and watched LOTR with us. Tom made it through the second one, and half of the third one, and then he passed out. So I warned him in advance that I was going to wake him up if he fell asleep, but after throwing about 6 nickels and hitting him in the face without him even making one movement I knew it wasn't worth attempting to wake him up. Dana, Brandon and I got through the third movie, and by then it was 4:30 in the morning so we all passed out right when it was over.

In the second movie Tom was saying something about how homosexual Frodo and Sam are to each other.
"I mean, I tell brandon all the time that I could never have made it this far without him. But I don't look deep into his eyes. I look at his crotch, which I guess is also really gay"--Tom
"SAM! SPEAK UP! I can't hear you!!" "hahahahaha I CRACKED MYSELF UP WITH THAT ONE!"--Tom

Woke up this morning feeling slightly eh, but Brandon passed me a beer and I felt fine after I finished it. We watched superbowl stuff all morning, and just hung around recovering from the past couple days. Jrapp left early, Dana left around 1:30, and I left at 2:30 since ALL I wanted to do was shower and change out of the clothes I'd been wearing since Friday night. I felt DISGUSTING. I was offered the shower there, but I figured why bother since I have to put back on the same gross, beer covered clothes I was wearing before hand.
"We have a shower. And plenty of girls jeans!"--Brandon <333 hahah big hearts.

So yes, I left around 2:30, got yelled at a bunch, got home, changed into comfy pants, got yelled at some more, and here I am. Updating my livejournal. I loved this weekend, and being in Wolcott. It was so much fun, and Brandon and Tom both told me they loved having me there, so yes. Good times were had by all. Mhm. :P

Now I'm going to pass out, and wake up around 7, watch some of the super bowl, and then go out with Panch, since I haven't seen him since Friday.

Ahhh things like this need to happen more often :)

[I have the hardest time resisting you]
<333
 
 
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Head Automatica--Beating Hearts Baby
 
 
Allee sonn
05 February 2006 @ 01:01 pm
This weekend was fucking awesome. I'll go into details about it later, but I'm wicked exhausted right now, so I'm gonna post pictures and then talk about it later. Basically, I lived in Wolcott from Friday to Sunday, and it was fucking awesome.

Oh oh oh! )
 
 
Current Mood: hung the fuck over
 
 
Allee sonn
03 February 2006 @ 07:10 am
So I just finished 3/4's of my application to SVA out of sheer boredom. I decided I might as well start it, cause if I can finish my portfolio in the next 2 months I can apply for the fall, see if I get in, get financial aid/scholarships, apply for student loans, and all that neat stuff. I also called about 50 places for jobs today, and I'm still in the process of doing so. Hopefully some will work out. Kim said creative cooking is hiring right now, but mom said the restaurant is wicked slow and I probably wouldn't make much money working there. Boohiss.
Josh told me last night about a flower shop that's hiring in Saybrook, and saybrook is the ideal location for to work for me right now. So maybe I'll check that out.

As for the show tonight, I still don't know what's going on. But I'm BLASTING the skeptics right now (it's a crush, it's a crush, it's just a cheap crutch that's been holding me upppp! *rocks out*) and I'm really wicked excited to see them tonight. Seriously, if I can figure out a plan of action, this show will kick so much ass. I get to see people I miss so much, rock out to the skeptics and signal the escape, finger-point my heart out (even though it won't be the same without alli oh!) cause girlll I'm all about youuuuu, meeting jrapp!, and possibly having a good night after the show. We'll see.
I'm wicked nervous about everything right now. I don't know what's going on, and if I can't go tonight, I might cry a lot.

So he needs to wake up. Now! I wish I hadn't woken up at 7, and I was still sleeping, so I wouldn't be bored and counting down the minutes all damn day.

AHHH

Oh well, I'll figure it out soon. If I can't go...I'll get over it I guess. Jrapp might be wicked mad at me though, haha.

(TWO THREE! JUST GOOOOOOOOOOOOO!)
 
 
Current Mood: weird
Current Music: the skeptics--distress calls
 
 
Allee sonn
02 February 2006 @ 06:53 pm
hkldjfl
 
 
Current Mood: jdfksljfkl
 
 
Allee sonn
02 February 2006 @ 10:41 am
Thursday, February 2:

Only you know what's best for you, so don't be so quick to trust someone else's advice over your own instincts, no matter how assured they sound. Follow your own path and heed your own guidance.
---
sweet.
 
 
Allee sonn
01 February 2006 @ 10:27 pm
I'm freaking the fuck out.
 
 
Current Mood: stressed
 
 
Allee sonn
01 February 2006 @ 04:45 pm
Venture311: i am getting drunk
allee a mazz: lucky boy
Venture311: be jealous
allee a mazz: you drink
allee a mazz: no way
allee a mazz: we can't be friends
allee a mazz: Im straightedge
Venture311: sucks for you
allee a mazz: ahaha
allee a mazz: I am jealous, by the way
Venture311: i was bringin something special up for you
Venture311: well for you and i
allee a mazz: I can't give in to peer pressure and compromise my standerds!
allee a mazz: psh, straightedge. yea.
Venture311: you can and will
allee a mazz: I might
Venture311: come on
allee a mazz: or...okay fine I will
Venture311: o a bring this all the way up from pa
allee a mazz: peer pressure works every time
Venture311: i know
allee a mazz: I hope you feel good about yourself! corrupting an innocent girl
Venture311: get the fuck out of here
Venture311: you will llove it
allee a mazz: how do you sleep at night.
Venture311: great
Venture311: ha ha ha
Venture311: yes
Venture311: that was a set-up
allee a mazz: haha yess
allee a mazz: NO
Venture311: that was great
----

So then I left jrapp a comment. And it was:
Image hosting by Photobucket

Hahaha our style is better than yours. So are our moves. Be jealous.
:P
 
 
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: burn this city--cartel
 
 
Allee sonn
31 January 2006 @ 05:20 am
"its time to go, this is goodbye"
she said "does it ever get easier to live like this"
and kiss the cheek
well i can't kiss you anymore
and i, i would honestly love you now
but i would lovingly let you down

oh i have the hardest time resisting you
and oh if you
if you feel the same way, then how can we be friends?
he's right you know
we can't go on like this
and oh i try to give you everything
and if i fail well then i failed
but at least i gave you something

i could put my trust in giving up the heart
it makes the difference
and how can you afford to settle down
when i, i would promise to love you now
but i would lovingly let you down

oh i have the hardest time resisting you
and oh if you
if you feel the same way, then how can we be friends?
he's right you know, we can't go on like this
and oh i try to give you everything
and if i fail well then i failed
but at least i gave you something

it's better than silence, give me one good reason

it's better than silence
give me one good reason
to leave this in silence
no you don't have a good reason

if you feel the same way, then how can we be friends?
he's right you know, we can't go on like this
and oh i try to give you everything
and if i fail well then i failed
but at least i gave you something

it's better than silence
it's better than silence
 
 
Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: cartel--if I fail