does it ever get easier to live like this?

allee_a_mazz @ 2006-02-08T17:34:00

2006-02-09T01:35:37Z

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2006-02-09T00:10:37Z

Allison is mostly likely to say the out-of-date phrase:	What choo talkin bout?
To:	Charles Darwin

Why?	Because they got drunk and tried to pretend that they were you
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Oh, Darwin...

la dee da

2006-02-08T18:47:02Z

Awful. I fell asleep at 10:30 last night on the couch. I’m retarded. Now, this wouldn’t be a big deal, but I didn’t even wake up for Saved by the Bell. I’m pissed about that. So my day is going to be spent teaching myself guitar. I’ve already decided. I really hate today a lot. I’m wicked lonely, I’m sick of being home alone all day, and I want to find a job. I mean, yea, I need money, but I’m fucking bored. I can’t take it anymore, I’m going crazy.
I miss Janine a lot. I don’t like that my best friend lives 2 hours away. That’s the only reason I really want to move back to the city, so I can see her more. But then I think about it, and I really don’t want to live in the city. I want to be able to drive, and not be as cold in the winter. There’s pros and cons, I guess I’m just going to have to weigh them and figure out exactly what I want to be doing with my life right now. I wish I wasn’t so indecisive. I seriously have no idea what I want when it comes to anything. I don’t even know what I want to major in anymore. I could major in journalism, but it’s such a competitive field. I could major in philosophy, but where’s that getting me? A job as a philosophy teacher? No thanks. I really have no desire to finish 18+ years of school just to go back and teach people who hated it just as much as I did. I don’t know if I want to major in art, but that’s something I have to decide REALLY soon. I just can’t do something I don’t have a passion for, or I won’t do it. Kind of like how I never went to math class cause I hated it so much. Fuck quantitative reasoning. That class blew.
I don’t know if I’m going to the show on the 16th anymore. I really want to, cause it’s an awesome lineup, but fuck! It’s local bands, and it’s 15 bucks? Seriously, it costs me at least 25 or 30 bucks to get to and from Mass to begin with, and 15 on top of that? Hi, I’m poor right now. You know, that whole not having a job thing kind of means I have no money as well. So we’ll see. I’ll talk to the Skeptics, or maybe These Green Eyes and see if I can sit and be merch bitch for the night and maybe they’ll bring me in with them. That would be neat.
I’ve been listening to Kelly Clarkson, Hanson, and Matchbox 20 all day. How dorky am I? My poor puppy looks so bored and sad. I let him outside for a while, but he wanted to come back in, and now some dumb dog is walking up and down the street, and every time he gets in front of our house Cooper barks like a maniac.
Okay, I’m done updating for now. Maybe later if something interesting actually happens in my life, which probably won’t happen.
Blah.

1. Do you give money to hobos on the street? Only sometimes. I've lived in nyc and I know that 90% of homeless people are faking it hcore. Did you know that if a homeless person plants themself in Central Park every day for a year, they could make close to a million dollars? Fucking ridiculous. I wish I made a million dollars a year to do absolutely nothing but mooch off other people. That would be seriously neat.
2. Are you a girl? I sure am.
3. Are you a unicorn? Hm. I can already tell this survey is going to piss me off.
4. Do you live in New York? Not anymore.
5. Do you go shopping frequently? Nope.
6. Have you ever met a clown? Yes, and I hate them so much. A clown came into Friendly's one time and sat in my section, so I had to trade sections with someone and give up all my tables.
7. Do you celebrate Christmas? Yes.
8. Do you have a bf//gf? Nope.
9. Have you seen the movie "Scream"? Yes.
10. Are you insane? I have my moments.
11. Do you like the rain? No. Not at all.
12. Do you use toothpaste? Yes. Who doesn't.
13. Do you brush your hair a lot? I haven't brushed my hair in probably...5 years.
14. Are you failing classes at school? No, especially since I'm not in school right now.
15. Do you like rap? Not particularly, but I did find some old school Ja Rule CDs today and laughed a considerable amount when I popped them in.
16. Are you scary to other people? I've been told I'm wicked intimidating, but scary? I doubt it.
17. Are you popular? Popular? Well, I have friends, and get along with everyone pretty much.
18. Are you listening to music right now? Of course.
19. Are you watching TV right now? Nope, I refuse to watch any daytime Tv. Especially since I missed Saved by the Bell.
20. Did you like this survey? Uhh.
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How long can you go without ...
food : I like food, but I can go without it for a while. As long as I have cigarettes, I'm all set.
friends : Not long at all.
cell phones : Seriously, sometimes I love when my cell phone dies for a while and I can't do anything about it, cause then I really don't have to talk to anyone I don't want to. It's neat :)
computers : I don't know, a while. I've made it days without touching a computer :P How pathetic does that sound?
tv : Well, I'm addicted to Saved by the Bell, so if I get my hour and a half each morning of that, I can last till the next morning without it.
family : Not long at all. Whenever I leave I miss my mom terribly.
drinks : Alcoholic or regular drinks? I almost always have some form of drink with me. I get wicked thirsty all the time.
your dog : I love my dog. He's laying halfway on me right now.
your cat : My cat comes around once every 3 months, haha.
your fish : My fish is going to die really soon.
xanga : Uhh I don't use that shit.
myspace : I never used to check it. But now I check it a lot. I can go a couple days before I start to wonder what's going on on the damn thing. Stupid addiction.
clothes : I say fuck clothes. We should make the world a nudest colony.
shoes : What the hell is up with these questions?
color : ....
music : No. I'm always listening to music.
showers : I'm obsessed with taking showers, so not long.
When's the last time you ...
Ate a muffin : I love muffins! I have no idea though. Probably about a month ago.
Drank faygo : What's that?
Showered : About a half hour ago.
Talked on the fone : Last night when JenK called me at like 1 in the morning, haha <3
With whom ? : JenK
How long ? : Maybe 5 minutes? She was really drunk and I was sleeping, haha.
said rad: Yesterday, actually. That's strange, I never use that word.
talked on ... : What?
went outside : 10 mins ago.
played in the snow : Fuck playing in the snow. But it was the weekend I went to see Janine in nyc.
watched a movie : In Wolcott, Saturday night/Sunday morning.
which movie ? : All 3 LOTR movies.
babysat somebody : Over the summer.
kissed somebody : This past weekend.
hugged somebody : Yesterday.
yelled at somebody : I don't really yell at people.
tripped somebody : I fall over myself all the time. I'm a dork.
went to school : 2 months ago. Not even, maybe a month and 1/2 ago.
This Or That
School // Summer :: Who picks school?? Summer, obviously.
Faygo // Dr.pepper :: Dr. Pepper, I don't know what Faygo is, but now I'm terribly interested.
Burgerking // Wendy's :: Wendy's!
Friends // Family :: Both.
Aim // Aol :: AIM.
Christmas // Halloween :: halloween
Dogs // Cats :: Dogs
Santa // Easter Bunny :: Hmm.
Playstation // x-box :: Either are fun. I wish I could find the xbox, but I think dad took it away from cam yesterday.
Pacman // mortal combat :: Mortal Kombat is the shit.
Cell Phone // Computer :: Either.
Singing // Sleeping :: Singing!
Go to church // sleep :: Sleep.
religious // fuck religion :: Neither. I don't care.
leftover crack // mariah carey :: Leftover crack! What a good band.
black // red :: Black. I hate red.
dyed hair // natural color :: Dyed hair.
***
x What is your first name? Alli
x What is your middle name? Bess
x What is your zodiac sign? Virgo
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x What is your natural hair color? Blonde
x What is your current hair color? Dark Brown.
x What color are your eyes? Green
x Piercings? 16
x Tattoos? 2
x Long or Short Hair? Shortish
x Straight or Curly? Straight.
x How tall are you? 5'5
x What is your shoe size? 7
-C-U-R-R-E-N-T-L-Y- -W-E-A-R-I-N-G
x What shirt are you wearing? Valencia Tshirt
x What kind of pants are you wearing? Jeans
x Socks? White ones
x Necklaces? a silver one with a ruby
x Bracelets? I have a rubberband around my left wrist. That's it.
x Earings? Only my tragus piercing is in right now.
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x Rock or Rap? Rock.
x Baseball or Softball? Baseball
x Wild Night out or Romantic Night in? Both are fun.
x Chocolate or Vanilla ice cream? Twist with chocolate sprinkles. That's a prime example of how indecisive I am.
x Hummer or Sports Car? Sports car. Hummers are so ugly.
x Pink or Black? Black.
x History or Science? History.
x Sleep in or Early to rise? Early to rise. I used to sleep in hcore. Not anymore though.
x Beach or Boardwalk? Beach, but I love boardwalks too.
x Hoodie or Tee Shirt? Hooodie. A zip up one. They're wonderful.
x Night Or Day? Both are nice.
x High School or College? College.
x Color White or Black? Black.
x Love or Fun? Both.
x California or Florida? Cali
x Biggie or 2pac? I'm not really into either.
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x Hugged someone? Yes.
x Been on the phone until the sun came up? Yes. What's up Brandon and Ryan Townsend? Haha.
x Put a song on repeat for more than 2 hours? Nope. I would get bored of it wicked fast.
x Been arrested? No.
x Got chased by the police? Yeap.
x Got detention? Oh yes.
x Slept past 4 in the afternoon? Haha yes.
x Rejected someone? Yep.
x Skipped School? uhh all of '05 with Crystal :P
x Skipped a Class? Yes.
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x Person you talked to in person? My mommm
x Person you talked to online? JenK <3333
x Person you talked to on the phone? My mom
x Thing you drank? Diet Coke
x Thing you laughed at? People that dip in the kiddie pool :P
x Cry? Cry? Huh? I don't do it often.
x Person you kissed? Brandon
x Person you told you loved them? My sister
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x Do you like surveys? Obviously.
x What kind of shampoo do you use? Whatever's in the shower. Today it was Herbal Essance. And I can't spell, shut your mouth.
x Do you ever wonder what your life will be like in 10 years? Sometimes.
x Are you scared of what life will be like in 10 years? Nope.
x Do you get along with your parents? Of course. I just called my dad to chat, cause I was bored, haha.
x Are you old enough to vote? Yes.
x Are you sad? Nope.
x Do you have mental breakdowns? Not in a while. Last one was maybe...November. And I haven't had one since. And I actually think it might have been more of an emotional breakdown.
x Did you ever tell your parents you didn't feel good so you didn't have to go to school? Uhh when I was like 10.
x Do you have a cell phone? Yes.
x Do you miss someone? Yes.
x If yes, will you call them when you are done with this survey? I doubt it.
x What are you going to do after this survey is done? Make lunch, walk my puppy.
x Are you done with this survey? I think there might be a lot left.
***
Out of your groups of friends:
Who is the talker? We all talk a decent amount.
Who is the listener? Me, haha.
Who are you worried about? No one. My friends can take care of themselves.
Who are you mad at? No one.
Who are you? Alli
What do you want to achieve fairly soon? Getting a job, a car, and getting accepted to Umass.
What do you want to get rid of? My boredom maybe.
What is one thing you are ashamed of? Ahh.
Say something ironic about your life: Every single guy I've ever liked has either been in a relationship with someone else, or had an issue with their ex being obsessed with them. I can't think of one guy that I've been ALL about, that's been all about me.
What was the last movie you watched in its entirety? The 3rd LOTR movie.
What was the last song you sang out loud? Valenica--Que Sera Sera
What was the last name you said? "The Comcast Dude" haha or Cooper.
Who was the last person you thought of? JenK cause I'm talking to her right now!

Have you
Ever done volunteer work of some kind? mhm
Ever had your appendix removed? No.
Ever read The Giving Tree? I might have.
--if so, Did it make you cry? Alright I don't think I have.
Do you like to be complimented? Depends on who's dishing out the compliments.
Do you like to be hugged? Yes! Someone come hug me.
Do you like to be touched? Who doesn't?
Why do you like to take surveys/questionnaires? Cuz they're something to do when I'm wicked bored.
Do you like school? I need school. Right now.
Why or Why not? Cause I'm bored as f.
Have you ever done recreational drugs? Yea
--if so, why did/do you do them? Boredom, fun, distraction.
--if not, Why Not? --
What religion do you follow? I don't.
--Why? Because I don't know.
List five positive adjectives or descriptive aspects about yourself: crazy, honest, outgoing, loyal, caring
List five negative adjectives or descriptive aspects about yourself: Sometimes I'm too outspoken, I get jealous, defensive, indecisive, and confusing.
Where do you stand on the political spectrum? not in the mood
What is your favorite color? Turquoise and orange
What is your astrological sign? Virgo
Do you write/type in ebonics? HAHA only when I had that weird program on my computer. That was a riot.
Do you text message often? Constantly.
Do you have a crush on a new guy/girl every day? No. Try every couple of months, once I figure out the guy is a fucker.

An In-Depth Analysis...of YOU
For Starters...
I don't care about your name, so let's skip that, ok?: Well, it's been asked 16 times already.
Instead, what's the best thing anyone has ever called you?: The most unique was 'something else' but there have been things like 'you're the kind of girl I can see myself marrying, I cant see myself with anyone else but you for the rest of my life' etc
How old do you feel?: Older than I am, no doubt.
How old do you look?: About 19 I'm guessing.
How tall is your best friend?: 5'4 and 5'3
What color hair did your 5th grade teacher have?: Blondish grey (haha Mrs Handy crystal!!)
What color are your father's eyes?: Blue
Where do you wish you lived?: I'm okay with where I live.

A Bit Deeper Now...
Do you remember your dreams?: Yes, almost always.
If so, tell me the one that disturbed you the most: I hate the dreams I can't wake up from, but I know they're dreams. It's really irritating.
How about the one that made you feel really good?: I don't know, happy dreams I guess?
When you were a child, did you have very vivid nightmares?: Only sometimes.
If so, do you remember them even now?: Yes, I do.
Were you ever betrayed by someone you trusted implicitly?: Oh yes.
What do you do when you're home alone?: You mean every single day of my life? I play with my puppy, sit online, watch tv sometimes. Today I played guitar, went outside for a while, called comcast, paid the bill for the internet, and...that's about as far as I've gotten today.
What do you think about when you are trying to fall asleep at night?: SO many things.
Do you fall asleep easily?: Depends on how drunk/tired I am.
Who is the one person you could never forget?: Zach.
Who do you trust the most?: JenK and Janine.

Tell Me Your Secrets...
Are there things that you've never told another human being?: there is.
If so, have you ever even written them down?: Nope
Have you ever been deeply hurt by a friend?: Yes
If so, have you ever *really* forgiven them?: Yes
Are you a virgin?: No
How do you feel about that?: Fine?
Is there anything that you really regret doing?: nah
How about *not* doing?: Nah

We're Really Deep Now...
What frightens you the most in the whole world?: I don't really think about things like that. I guess never getting anywhere in life is a big one.
Have you ever contemplated suicide?: No.
Have you ever tried to commit it?: No.
Would you donate an organ to your best friend?: Yes.
What if it meant you'd die, but they would die without it?: I'd do it.
What is the worst thing that ever happened to you?: I'm not sure. Probably watching my dad at his mother's funeral. That was devistating.
Are you afraid of death?: No
What do you think happens afterwards?: Who knows?
Are you a religious person?: Nah
What *do* you believe?: I'm not sure.
What are you passionate about?: Photography, music, writing, life, love, everything. I'm a wicked passionate person.
Do you carry a lot of guilt?: No.
Would you carry a gun?: Nah.
Do you have a lot of anger?: Nope.
Have you ever thought you were going crazy?: Haha yes. He tried to make me feel like I was the one going crazy. It was bad.
Have you ever thought that maybe you ARE? Haha I guess it's a possibility?
Do you believe in coincidences?: Sure
Why?: Maybe I don't.
How did you like this survey?: Meh, same old.
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1. Are you at work/school right now? If so, are you supposed to be taking surveys on Myspace? No, and Im not even on myspace. Thanks.
2. What is the closest College/University to your house? Uconn maybe? Except for community. Oh wait, maybe QU. I don't know, haha.
3. Did you ever own a pager? nope.
4. If you could only watch one sports team for the rest of your life, who would it be? Bruins.
5. What was your best Halloween costume ever? Who knows?
6. Whats the most annoying tv commercial? The one that was on sports center for chocolates OVER AND OVER.
7. What was the last thing you said to someone? "ahh" hahaha
8. What is your current desktop picture? The beach <3
9. How Many People Have you thought were the "One"? One.
10. Are you crushing on someone right now and they know it? He knows it.
11. Are you crushing on someone right now and they don't know it? Oh, he knows it.
12. Have you ever been ontop of the Empire State Building? Yes. And crystal, you have. We went in 7th grade.
13. What is the biggest turn-off in a girl/guy? being a cocky bitch.
14. If you could bring one dead celebrity back to life, who would it be? Fucking Chris Farley!
15.Do you live in a city with a good sports team? Nooooo
16. Who is the last person you bought a drink for? I have never bought someone a drink at a bar, cause people are constantly handing me drinks. Oh, and I'm poor. But I did buy beer on Saturday.
17. Do you wake up or open your eyes first? I'm not sure.
18. Who is your best friend that you met solely on myspace? Mark!
19. What is the worst physical pain you have ever experienced? When my throat was eating itself and I didnt eat for a month straight.
20. Who is the greatest football player of all time? I don't know, but I like Brett an awful lot.
21. Is the single life for you? I could go either way.
22. Do they put underwear on corpses? HAHA I don't know.
23. Who told you they loved you last? JenK I think.
24. What's your worst fear? Im not answering this again.
25.What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? I effing LOVE Crystal to death.
26. Do you know everyone in your top 8 personally? I have a top 12, and I'm pretty sure I do.
27. If you had to date only people from your myspace friends, would you have to quit myspace? You mean friends that I don't know in real life? Yes.
28. What kind of e-mail account do you have? hotmail, marymount, and gmail
29. DO you think one night stand sex is better than relationship sex? No.
30. Seahawks or Steelers? Steelers bitches.
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Childhood weirdness
Did you spend your childhood time with mostly real or imaginary friends?: Sadly, I never had an imaginary friend.
Did people consider you an odd child?: I don't think so. I was a little bitch though.
Do you have memories that go back to when you were only a few months old?: no, I don't remember anything before being 3.
Do you remember any thoughts you had when you where very young?: mhm.
Were they intricate or simple thoughts?: simple probably
If you answered "intricate", give an example of one of those thoughts:
Were you dreams very vivid as a child?: Yes
What is the strangest memory you have from early childhood?: I think I rode an elephant or a camel at some point.
Were you a child prodigy or did you display any gifts at a young age?: I could read when I was 3.
What was the most "grown-up" thing you ever said as a child?: Hmm. I don't think I did any grown up things.
What were your favoite TV shows in early childhood?: Oh man, I don't know. Anything on Nick.
Were you afraid of monsters?: Nope.
Did you believe that fictional characters were real?: Yes :(
Were you more quiet and artistic or loud and physical?: artistic and LOUD and physical.

Issues and US Stuff
Do you eat meat?: I do now...
If you do, what is your justification for it?: because I wanted to.
If you could legalize 3 things in the US, what would they be?: marijuana, drinking at 18, and making the speed limit much faster.
Do you belive in the death penalty?: NO.
Did Mumia do it?: Mumia? I feel dumb right now.
If you had a choice, which country would you have chosen to be born into? Ireland.
What are your opinions of Michael Moore?: He's alright.
Describe your feelings about marijuana legalization: Hahaha yes. It needs to be legalized.
What about gay marriage?: All for it.
Red, White and Blue is a ghastly color combination, right?: I don't care. It's the colors on the Pabst can, so I'm alright with it.
What television news coverage do you detest the most?: I dont.
What will you do if Bush is re-elected? He can't be...Thankfully. Fucker.
Which state do you think will drop off into the ocean first?: ...
Who do you consider "American Heroes"? The troops overseas and teachers

Completely Obtuse And Silly Questions
Have you ever taken something apart just to see how it worked? Yes, haha.
Do you ever yell at the television while you are alone? Reason?: ALL the time. I don't know why?
Name a few things (if any) that you bought on Ebay recently: Nothing.
Are the Muppetes sinister? Think about it: The muppets are awesome.
Do you watch the Science Channel (Discovery) on a regular basis?: No.
Ever gotten into an "in person" argument with a total stranger?: Yes, I have.
Sugar or Honey?: Honey. In tea. mmm.
What's on your desk right now?: diet coke a cup of coffee, my camera, some cds, chapstick, a letter my sister wrote me, and some makeup.
How many e-mails do you recieve a day?: 10ish
Do you think that time travel is a possibility?: Maybe.
Have you ever had a past life regression?: No
Are you slightly addicted to online tests and surveys?: Yes.
San Francisco or New York City?: NYC
What are your favorite color combinations?: turquoise and orange.
Close your eyes and type the first random image that pops into your head: peanuts. ewww I hate peanuts.
Do you enjoy night or day better?: either.
Favorite animal: donkey and koala.
Have you ever been to a protest?: Yes
Aggravated a cop on purpose?: Of course. Madison cops "WHOA we're halfway there! whoaaaa! livin' on a prayer!"
Worst decision you ever made?: Going to marymount
Ever gone train hopping/ridden the rails?: It's impossible to not pay on a train nowadays
Best invention of this century? Worst?: iPodsssss. I dont know.
If you could choose a time period in which to live, which would it be?: 20's or 60's.
Ever put your hand through a window?: Yes.
List a few words you hate the sound of: No.
And a few you like the sound of: No.
Are you sick of this survey yet? YES.

Emotions And Such
Have you attempted suicide more than once?: No?
Cutting?: Yea
Do you get violent when you are angry?: No
Which emotion are you most consumed by?: Happiness, as of late.
Are you highly emotive?: Maybe?
Do you discuss problems or keep them to yourself?: usually keep them to myself. since Im everyone's ear, and no one's mine. It's pretty neat.
Do you fall in love easily?: No
What age/year was the most difficult for you?: Senior year
How do you channel your anger/sadness?: I get PISSED, chainsmoke, and then think of a plot of revenge.
Ever been addicted to alcohol or drugs?: I wouldn't say it's an addiction...
Ever been homeless?: No
List a few simple things that make you happy: friends, family, music, kissing
When were you most recently your happiest?: I'm always happy.
Do you consider yourself empathetic?: Mhm

Friends
Describe your best friend as if you were describing a character from a film: I don't wanna.
Do you have friends that are drastically different from each other?: Oh god yes
List a few key traits that all of your friends have in common: they're all hot as HELLO, and they all have a bitchin' sense of humor.
Do you keep in touch with friends from highschool?: Uhh, Briana and Crystal. That's about it. Oh, and Vanessa sometimes. Kim's too cool now.
Have you lost touch with many of your friends?: Oh yea.
Are they mostly local or long distance?: My friends? Some are long distance, some are local.
When you go out with friends, what kinds of things do you do?: drink, shows, movies, hang out, swim, xdeckxcorex
Have you ever been betrayed by a close friend?: YEP
If yes, are you still friends with that person?: Yea
Are your friends mostly your age, younger or older?: all three.
Do you have a hard time making friends because most people bore you?: Nah, I make friends wicked easy.
Do you like to hang out with friends one-on-one or in groups?: Small groups.
Which of you online friends do you have the most in common with?: JenK, definitely.

Family
Are you close to your family?: Wicked.
What traits are you glad you inherited from them?: all of them.
Which traits are you pissed off you inherited from them?: being so stubborn and competitive. Im such a shea.
What sitcom does your family most remind you of?: None
Does your family live locally or far away?: localish
Have you ever stopped speaking to someone in your family?: Yes
Have either of your parents died?: No
Is your family very much like you or are you opposites?: VERY much like me.
How many siblings do you have?: 2.5
Has your family ever thrown food at each other?: I'm sure we have.
Are the holidays a nightmare or a time of joy? haha it depends. Usually they go pretty smooth.
Do you look like your parents?: My mom and I look SO much alike.
List one interesting fact about your family: We're too competitive for our own good.

Lovers
Gay, Straight, Bi-sexual or no idea?: No idea.
Married/partnered?: No
Ever gone out with someone you were embarassed to be seen with?: No.
Ever broken someones heart?: I've been told so.
How many serious relationships have you had?: 2
Do you believe in monogamy?: Yes
Have you ever lusted obsessively over someone you knew you couldn't have?: Nope
Do you believe in the theory of soulmates?: Yes, I have one <3 JenK
Ever cheated?: NEVER EVER. Worst thing ever.
Been cheated on?: Yep.
Thrown someones stuff out on the lawn/stairs/etc.?: Haha Yes.
Had your stuff thrown out on the lawn/stairs/etc.?: No.
Most important emotional qualities of a lover?: honest, trustworthy, compassionate
Most important physical qualities?: Height, smile/teeth

Food & Drink
Non-alcoholic beverage of choice:: diet coke, orange juice, and orange soda are awesome
Alcoholic beverage of choice: Beer
Foods you crave on a regulr basis: I want ice cream so badly right now. Some one bring me icecream!
Salsa and Chips or Pita and Hummus?: Pita and Hummus, and now I want that instead of ice cream. mmmm.
Meat or Tofu?: Tofu is sooo good.
Soup or Salad?: salad
Soda or Juice?: juice
Can I get you anything else?: french fries :P
What's your problem?: Hahaha dramaaa.
Favorite candy:: gum
Favorite food to make: Sushi is so fun to make.
Food brand that you hate?: I dont know.
Do you try to buy all organic?: I used to.
Favorite quick food?: Uh, taco bell.

Would You Rather...
Eat a steak or a whole tube of toothpaste?: steak
Be covered in papercuts or cigarette burns?: Oh christ, that's awful to think about.
Be percieved as intelligent or street-smart (but not both)?: Either.
Eat a bottle cap or a spider the size of a bottle cap?: bottle cap. GROSS. I'm so terrified of spiders.
Have to always eat standing up or always enter your car from the sunroof.: HAHAHA sunroof.
Be ruled exclusively by your heart or your mind?: Heart
Have the power to read minds or make anyone fall in love with you?: Read minds.
Chew shards of broken glass or sit on a lighted barbeque grill?: chew broken glass
Not be able to tell the time or not know left from right?: I already barely know my left from my right.
Be able to fly or be able to render yourself invisible?: Fly!
Eat 15 feet of aluminum foil or swallow 3 steel guitar strings?: guitar strings.
Have questionable integrity or no sense of humor?: questionable integrity
Always spit when you talk or always be spit on while spoken to?: I don't wanna be that guy that spits on people.
Granted the answers to any 3 questions or ability to resurrect one person?: the 3 questions.

Final Questions
Ever had a great song ruined for you after it was used in a commercial?: Nah.
Ever yelled at an SUV?: YES.
A Hummer?: YES.
Ever faked being sick to get out of going somewhere?: Probably.
Horror film that freaked you out the most?: I don't know.
Horror film that is so scary, you could not be paid to watch it again.: I don't know.
If you could turn back time and change one thing, what would it be?: Nothing.
Bambi or Nemo?: nemo!
List 3 things that are worrying you right now: money, job, college
It's too fucking long, right?: hell yes
Well, I'm just trying to help you pass the time.: i know
What was the first concert you ever went to?: hanson! haha
Do you think you'll ever have children if you don't already?: Im not sure. Probably.
Do you think there is life on other planets?: Maybe
Have you ever broken a leg or arm?: No
Would you rather stay in the house or do things outside: outside
David Letterman or Jay Leno?: Iduno
Last words?: My puppy is cuter than yours.

I'm a nut.

2006-02-08T01:42:24Z

Umm I love my new layout.
It's bright, it's called...lemon grapefruit tangerine or something, and I LOVE grapefruit, so yum.
Plus I'm bright and cheery *tee hee* Uhh...right.
Hahaha I'm such a goof.

There's a hole in the bucket.

2006-02-08T01:20:25Z

My new layout is hard to read, and the friends page is near impossible.
But guess what? I don't care at all. One bit. Nope. I'm exhausted since I got up at 4 am, and fixing my livejournal layout is seriously the last thing on my list.
Maybe I'll have less livejournal lurkers this way too :P Not that I really care.

We're watching some show on tv about this dude that's trying to find a condo, or something. He is such a fag, and I want to punch him. "This room is really blue. those windows are really square. This room is really red. That carpet is really white." Yea. No fucking shit. Shut your mouth. It was a cute condo too. Wicked big, high ceilings, colorful. Guys should not be able to choose where the family is going to live.
Worst.taste.ever.

I need to figure out what the hell I'm doing within the next couple of months.

Oh! I got a lot done today. I guess I can actually make a decent update for once.

So I actually don't know what the hell I'm doing for the next couple of months. I think I'm gonna live home, get a job (seriously, I need one. Not only am I poor, but I'm broke, and I'm living without a car which makes me wanna freak out really bad), get a car. I called the insurence company today and talked to the guy about the kind of car I want, and he put in a random vin number of the celica model/year/make and factored in my accidents and tickets, and it's gonna be about 96 bucks a month. The cheapest my insurence EVER was, was around 120 a month, and it was when I was on my parents insurence. So 96 a month? Fuck.yes. That's seriously so doable. If I don't finance a car and just pay in full for it, I'll be paying 96 a month, and seriously, what else to I have to pay for? gas, cigarettes, food if I randomly decide I'm hungry, which I barely ever am, and booze. Gas is wicked expensive right now (and my x button is bitching out hcore) but oh well. Then I can save for paying for school in the fall or spring, depending on when I go. Which leads into my next issue.

I don't know when I wanna go to school. I finished my app for sva completely today, besides the essay, which I haven't even started yet, and finishing my portfolio, which I feel like it's NEVER gonna get done. UGH. I'm so irritated with art school shit. So I think I'm gonna skip out on photo and major in journalism. Which they effing offer at Umass Amherst, which is sweet, cause usually it's only a minor. Oh, if I could major in that I might get really excited. But I've also been thinking about majoring in philosophy, since I LOVE it. They also offer that there. Another cool thing, 80% of applicants are admitted, SAT scores are right around what I got, (but I'm seriously considering taking them again since now there's an essay on it, and since I kick ass at essays, I should be able to get a higher score no problem) and it's not even as expensive as sva. Plus, I can have a car on campus, which is something I definitely want. So if I lived on campus I wouldn't have to pay for an apartment, which is neat. The only reason I'd ever want to live off campus is because a lot of schools wont let you have a car there first year, and that's something I think I absolutely need. Especially since I NEED to have a job while I'm there. No doubt about that one.
The only downside to Umass? I can't go there until the spring. The fucking application was due by feb 1st. Maybe if I wasn't such a dumbass I would have started it a whole lot earlier, like when I was still at Marymount, or maybe right after I left there, oh, a month and a half ago. Well, at least I'm getting motivated now, right?
So I did a lot of the Umass application today, and when I went to go look at the essay questions so I could start it, or at least mull over some ideas for it, there wasn't a fucking section! So I talked to Ryan, and made sure he had to do an essay for it. He told me to call the school and see what the hell the deal was with there being NO space for me to do an essay. UGH. So I called the admissions office and told them, and the lady seriously was such a dumbass. How do people who are so mentally retarded work at colleges and universities? I mean, at least have to graduate HIGH SCHOOL to get a job somewhere like that, please for christs sake. So she said she would have someone call me back when they got in, and someone would let me know what the problem is and what I should do.
I called them around...Oh, I don't know, 11 this morning? Have I heard back from them? No. Way to be wicked unreliable. Oh well.

So Mom thinks I should try to go to school in the fall, but I think I'm just gonna see if I get into Umass, which I'm really hoping I do (I shouldn't have a problem, I'm pretty sure) and for the next 11 months just get the rest of my shit out of the way. As in, a car and paying off my 30,000 dollars in debt. Stupid Marymount, I hate you. Wasted 3 months of my life and cost me 10,000 per month. Grrr.

I don't even want to bother applying for a student loan right now, since my credit should be kind of fixed by next year, I'm hoping.

Alright, this is wicked long, and I'm pretty sure I hate how uncomfortable my layout is, so I lied. I'm gonna change it.
I'm glad I have my life for the next year at least going in some direction now. I just need to push myself, and I know this is something I really wanna do.
And I'm thinking I can just do photo on the side.
Alright, /story of my life. I probably just bored you all to death. :P

allee_a_mazz @ 2006-02-07T03:27:00

2006-02-07T11:29:08Z

Daily Fortune

Tell that someone that you love them.

Horoscope
Virgo
You can feel a change, and you just know it's going to be a big one. The pace of life -- yours in particular, if you were to take a poll among your friends -- has picked up considerably. Needless to say, you have endless energy, but ordinarily, you'd feel guilty if you stayed up too late. Toss those feelings out the window, right now. It's all part of what's coming.

chaseeee it's you I wantttt

2006-02-06T18:48:40Z

all I want to do is take a motherfucking shower. I should have showered in Wolcott, but like I was supposed to know our water was being fixed today. So now there are people digging in my front yard, fixing shit, and I can't take a shower till they leave. I seriously am SO digusting. Thankfully I haven't left the house at all since I got home from Wolcott. But I feel so gross, since I'm kind of a freak about being clean. ahhhhhhh leave already dammit!

Panch is getting his tires replaced right now, and I think we're hanging out after that. But only if I get to shower. I refuse to leave the house feeling this nasty. My hair smells like beer and weed. YUM. And there's still product in it, so right now, technically, I could make myself have a sick fro, or maybe even make it all stand up straight. That could be neat. :P
I'm a dork.

And I love cranberry juice.
Blah.

It's allllllright!

2006-02-06T12:22:24Z

Okay, this is million one-liner posts a day, but I just had to reiterate the fact that Saved by the Bell is by far the best show in the ENTIRE world, and I am really wicked excited that I got up early enough to watch it.
I can tell today is going to be pretttty awesome already.

hahahahahaha

2006-02-06T10:08:27Z

I forgot how much I fucking LOVE dane cook.

"JESUS CHRIST TIMMY! DO NOT FLOAT ABOVE ME WHEN I'M DYING IN THE ABYSS!"

lovelovelove

I was gonna go to sleep, now I have to listen to 3 hours of Dane Cook. Then maybe I'll sleep :P
GOD I'm a dork.

cause girl, I'm all about you

2006-02-06T07:35:59Z

Dear Allison,
Here is your single's love horoscope
for Monday, February 6:

Today's work issues offer a great opportunity for you to practice your new power and self-assuredness. Step out in front, and don't be afraid to take charge of a confused situation. You'll gain admiration from many people.

[life is good]

allee_a_mazz @ 2006-02-05T16:43:00

2006-02-06T01:17:50Z

Relationship status: single bitches.

IQ (seriously): I have NO idea.

Religion: Agnostic

-FAVORITES-

Color: Turquoise and orange

Food: Sushi

Band: Top five of the moment are Blood for Blood, Head Automatica, Lucy, Saves the Day and Fall of Troy

Animal: Donkey :P

Flower: Sunflowers <3

Writing untencil: Pen's are neat.

Store: Blue Moon, Sunshine Daydream, and Old Glory

Song: I ain't like you--Blood for Blood, At Your Funeral--Saves the Day

Place: Va Beach, Boston, NYC, Florida, Hayley's, Wolcott!

City: Boston/NYC

Article of clothing you own: My chubby belt :( in Wolcott

TV Show: Family Guy

Stuffed animal: Platty, duh.

Resturaunt: Olive Garden

Subject: Lit/Photo

Play: RENT/Wicked

Book: Flowers in the Attic, Perks of being a wallflower, clockwork orange, catcher in the rye

-THOUGHT PROVOKING QUESTIONS-

What do you want to be when you grow up? Why?: Something that combines music, photography, and writing. I'm not sure what it is yet, but something that works with the three. Or at least 2 out of 3.

Are you intellegent? I like to think so. Sometimes I make reallllly bad decisions though.

Do you feel that golf is a a game or sport? Why?: It's a sport. Play it and you'll understand.

Do you like the President? Why or why not?: No, because he's a fucking donkey that doesn't know what the hell he's doing.

What is your proudst moment?: Uhh, how about not puking Saturday morning? I was pretty psyched about that.

Does Nilla Wafers in Pudding sound unappitizing to you? Why or why not? Right now, yes. I'm hungover, I ate chinese food, and any kind of food sounds absolutely repulsive right now.

What are you avoiding by filling out this survey? Nothing, I'm watching the game. Seahawks...die. Thanks.

Are you successful? Haha not at the moment, I'm not. Hopefully I will be eventually.

What is the funniest thing you have seen recently?: Pick any moment from this past weekend in Wolcott (refer to my pictures) and that's the funniest thing I've seen recently.

Do you like your life? Why or why not?: I love my life, duh. It's pretty awesome right now. I'm happy, I have good friends. The only downside is not having a job or a car at the moment.

What is your most embarrising moment? New years '05 style haha

Do you think that people are born homosexual or that it is a society derived attribute aquired during the growth process? Why?: It's already been scientificly proven that people are born homosexual so shut your mouth.

-Random questions-

Did you like the "Back to the Future" movies? YES. Those movies are the shit.

Ghosts and Witches: real or hoax?: Real I think.

Do you like Micheal Jackson or do you think he is a has-been? lovelovelove him!

Do you speak anyother language besides English?: I speak french, but not well anymore :( Boohiss.

Do you find the "Iron Chef" humorous?: Yea, I do. Haha.

Do you think that cheerleading is a sport? Nope.

What type of computer are you using right now? Toshiba laptop.

Do you own an article of clothing that is pleather?: Nope.

Are you watching TV or listening to music right now? If so, what are you watching/listening?: Watching the game/listening to saves the day

What does your hair look like right now? Greasy, disgusting, and pulled back with a rubberband.

What time is it? 8:08

Do you enjoy Hanson's music? Why or why not?: I do like some songs, actually.

-PERSONAL QUESTIONS-

What time do you wake up in the morning? I've been waking up earlier than normal lately. I haven't gotten too much sleep in the past 3 or 4 days, so I'm probably gonna sleep wicked hard tonight.

What is your daily routine? I don't really have one.

Do you have a lot of friends? I don't know. I have a lot of wicked good friends.

Do you have an actual best friend? Miss Janine Iverson Sacco. Duh.

Do you live with anyone? My family.

Your room: spacious/tiny? personal/cluttered? bare/busy? nice/ugly?: spacious/cluttered/both/cute.

What do you like most about yourself? My personality. I'm outgoing and fun I think.

Does your job suck? If I had one I'm sure it would.

Do you get along with your family? I do.

Do you enjoy the people in your everyday life? So much. If I didn't, they wouldn't be in my everyday life.

Are you critical or gullable? A little of both.

Do you trust people? Why or why not?: Not really. I've been fucked over too much.

What is in your purse/bag/briefcase right now? Digital camera, iPod, 2 packs of cigarettes, cell phone, wallet, keys, a toothbrush and chapstick.

What defines the perfect partner for you? Just someone I get along with, who's nice, funny, and a good time to be around.

-BODY QUESTIONS-

Do you have good personal hygene? Yea, I carry a toothbrush with me everywhere, just in case. Like this weekend, I would have been so pissed if I hadn't had my toothbrush with me.

Do you clean (Q-Tip) your ears? How often?: Yes, I'm ocd about it.

Are you in good physical shape? Eh. I couldn't run 6 miles straight anymore, that's for damn sure.

What are your eating habits? I eat what I want. I'm not some stupid skinny girl who doesn't eat food.

What is your hair color? Dark brown.

Do you smoke/dip? Smoke

How often do you shower? At least once a day most of the time.

What do you usualy drink during the average day? Orange juice, beer, water.

Do you paint your nails? If so, what color? Sometimes when I'm bored. Usually dark marroon purple wine color.

Do you have more than one hairstyle? Yea...

Do you wear retainers/braces? Have you? No and No.

Do you have contacts/glasses? Glassessss

Do you think that you are a healthy person? god no.

-ETC-

How often do you get online? I'm online a lot. I wasn't online all this weekend though. Yay for my myspace addiction being gone.

Do you write letters to people? Yes, but I rarely give them to them. I write them because it's like a de-stress thing.

Are you afraid to ride in a plane? No.

Are you tired? Wicked.

Do you want to go to sleep? Kind of.

Have you ever been in love? Yes.

Are you attracted to anyone? I'm attracted to a lot of people. There are some damn good looking guys I hang out with.

Do you wish you had someone right now? Meh, I'm okay with being single for the time being.

Are you at home and wish you were somewhere else? No, being in my own bed feels damn good right now.

What is the best coffee you've ever had? Starbucks. Mmmm.

What time is it?: 8:17

funfunfun

2006-02-05T22:13:50Z

This weekend was fucking awesome. Friday during the day was pretty terrible, because I had an anxiety attack for the first time in about a year. I didn't eat anything all day friday, sans some espresso beans and a espresso/coffee/milk/chocolate drink, and those two things only added to the anxiety by making me jittery and feeling like shit. So all day I didn't know what was going on for the show, where I was going, how I was getting there, or home, or where I was going afterwards. Around 5 or so I talked to Danielle, and she said she'd be able to bring me home from Wolcott if I either didn't have a ride or wasn't staying there.
So I ended up going to the show, and hanging out with Rob for most of the night since a girl was making me feel out of place and awkward, and it was fucking dumb. I met jrapp when I got there! Yay! And then went over and hung out with the skeptics. I didn't know this 'til last night, but Kevin and Aly from Vt are dating. Random? Yes. Cute? Of course. So the skeptics went on 20 mins after I got there, and I rocked out to their set a whole lot. They playing stupid home sweet home, and I was not psyched. They didn't play distress calls, and once again, I was not psyched. But the rest of the setlist was good. They played loaded lipstick and behind closed doors, so I was kind of psyched. But they played really freakin' well. Brandon complimented them this morning when we woke up and said they played really well which was cool.
So after the set Rob asked me if I wanted to hear the new acoustic stuff they just finished recording and got the cds for today, so we went out to the van and listened to them. They're actually really good. I was impressed. So then SIGNALtheESCAPE went on. I stood more in the back, cause I hate being that groupie that stands right up front and SCREAMS out all the words to all the songs while jumping around like a jackass. Though I did have fun watching said girls do so :P

After that I hung outside for a while, smoked some cigarettes, hung out with the skeptics/mark and jenny for a little. Rob and Jrapp met and shared pizza and it was wicked cute. Jrapp and Brandon made fun of me for a while, then we all decided we were going back to Wolcott. So since I was freezing and nothing was coming out of standing outside the van, Alicia, Jrapp, Ivan, Kipinto and I piled into the van. Tom and Mark came over a couple mins later and we left, since everyone else was riding in Adam's car.

The car ride was kind of funny, since people kept saying "are we there yet? how much longer?" and seriously, it was like a 20 minute ride, so it reminded me of little kids, and it was cute and fun. By the way, fall of troy/saves the day = <3333

Alright, so we finally got back to Tom and Brandon's, and immediately started drinking, which was neat. Brandon was on top of the beer situation, since he was officially hired as my beer wench Friday night. Woohoo :P I talked to Danielle, and Tom gave her directions, and she showed up with some RANDOM people that I didn't know, and I felt kind of weird since they weren't my friends, and they didn't know anyone, and it was just kind of strange. I guess they felt weird too, cause they left pretty soon after they got there. I wanted Danielle to come back, but she ended up going home and told me if I needed a ride she would just come back to Tom's house. Jrapp and Josh made a pretty sweet, ghetto gravity bong. It was really hilarious to watch Josh hit it, cause right after he hit it, he hit the floor. "That's what I'm talkin' about!"
So basically Friday we all got drunk BEYOND comprehension. By the end of the night I couldn't stand, or see straight at all, and Tom and I kept having the most hilarious conversations that neither of us can really remember now. Everyone passed out around 4 or 5, so when Brandon and I decided to go to sleep every available place was taken. Where did we end up? Oh, on the floor. I was so wicked uncomfortable, so was he, and we were both FREEZING. But I got a pillow, and that's better than nothing. Ivan passed out on Brandon's bed :( But whatever.

So we woke up around 11:30 Saturday, and I felt like SHIT. The guys had to get up and go to some crazy birthday party for some girl that's obsessed with them, and they were surprising her or something? So they had to be out of the house by like, 12:45. I had the WORSTTTT hangover I've ever had. I couldn't even move, I felt terrible. Right when I woke up I ran upstairs cause I thought I was going to throw up, but I ended up being okay after I sat on the coach for a minute. There was a little bit of really fucking gay text message drama when I woke up, and I was really not psyched to be in the middle of that, again. But anyway, Josh, Jrapp, maybe Dana? and I chilled at the house, watching movies. I laid on Brandon's bed and passed out hcore till 2. When I woke up Tom was home, and Mark, Ivan and Brandon had left for the video shoot they were doing. I can't even remember the band right now. So we put in another movie, and by 3 I was asleep again. His bed is wicked comfy. I woke up at 5, and Jrapp got me orange juice (!!!) and after I drank that I felt SO much better. "It's your orange juice, just chug it back!"-Tom :P
Right when I woke up at 5 we started drinking again. Jrapp and I bought the beer, he and tom came home with two 30 racks of Pabst. "Emo beer". So we started drinking, and then Jrapp and Tom had the ingenious idea of watching all three LOTR movies back to back. Tom, Jrapp and I decided we were a team, so if one of us made it through all three it was good enough. Jrapp was OUT before the first movie was even over, haha.

Brandon got home around 9:30 and was wicked tired, but toughed it out, drank a ton of beer, and watched LOTR with us. Tom made it through the second one, and half of the third one, and then he passed out. So I warned him in advance that I was going to wake him up if he fell asleep, but after throwing about 6 nickels and hitting him in the face without him even making one movement I knew it wasn't worth attempting to wake him up. Dana, Brandon and I got through the third movie, and by then it was 4:30 in the morning so we all passed out right when it was over.

In the second movie Tom was saying something about how homosexual Frodo and Sam are to each other.
"I mean, I tell brandon all the time that I could never have made it this far without him. But I don't look deep into his eyes. I look at his crotch, which I guess is also really gay"--Tom
"SAM! SPEAK UP! I can't hear you!!" "hahahahaha I CRACKED MYSELF UP WITH THAT ONE!"--Tom

Woke up this morning feeling slightly eh, but Brandon passed me a beer and I felt fine after I finished it. We watched superbowl stuff all morning, and just hung around recovering from the past couple days. Jrapp left early, Dana left around 1:30, and I left at 2:30 since ALL I wanted to do was shower and change out of the clothes I'd been wearing since Friday night. I felt DISGUSTING. I was offered the shower there, but I figured why bother since I have to put back on the same gross, beer covered clothes I was wearing before hand.
"We have a shower. And plenty of girls jeans!"--Brandon <333 hahah big hearts.

So yes, I left around 2:30, got yelled at a bunch, got home, changed into comfy pants, got yelled at some more, and here I am. Updating my livejournal. I loved this weekend, and being in Wolcott. It was so much fun, and Brandon and Tom both told me they loved having me there, so yes. Good times were had by all. Mhm. :P

Now I'm going to pass out, and wake up around 7, watch some of the super bowl, and then go out with Panch, since I haven't seen him since Friday.

Ahhh things like this need to happen more often :)

[I have the hardest time resisting you]
<333

Pictures!

2006-02-05T21:11:17Z

This weekend was fucking awesome. I'll go into details about it later, but I'm wicked exhausted right now, so I'm gonna post pictures and then talk about it later. Basically, I lived in Wolcott from Friday to Sunday, and it was fucking awesome.

Mark decided to model everyone's clothes. And by everyone I mean some girl's vest and brandon's jacket

"TAKE MY NEW MYSPACE PICTURE!"--Brandon

Jrappppp

This picture pretty much describes Joran and Brandon to a t

Jam session

Brandon gets low

Mark carried this drumstick around for the majority of the night.

Brandon tried seranading Tom. I think it worked.

Two of my favorite boys ever :)

Brandon was also modeling for the camera. That was kind of adorable.

Tom loves me. This picture says it all.

Tom taught us how to get rid of our hiccups. Brandon walked in and thought we were all fucking crazy. So this is tom explaining to Brandon, haha.

And this is Mark trying it out

HURTTTTTTTTTTTT

Josh took one hit of the gravity bong and he was OUTT

Oh Tom :P

Cutest picture ever

Then Mark started taking clothes off

The end :)

Just knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

2006-02-03T15:23:32Z

So I just finished 3/4's of my application to SVA out of sheer boredom. I decided I might as well start it, cause if I can finish my portfolio in the next 2 months I can apply for the fall, see if I get in, get financial aid/scholarships, apply for student loans, and all that neat stuff. I also called about 50 places for jobs today, and I'm still in the process of doing so. Hopefully some will work out. Kim said creative cooking is hiring right now, but mom said the restaurant is wicked slow and I probably wouldn't make much money working there. Boohiss.
Josh told me last night about a flower shop that's hiring in Saybrook, and saybrook is the ideal location for to work for me right now. So maybe I'll check that out.

As for the show tonight, I still don't know what's going on. But I'm BLASTING the skeptics right now (it's a crush, it's a crush, it's just a cheap crutch that's been holding me upppp! *rocks out*) and I'm really wicked excited to see them tonight. Seriously, if I can figure out a plan of action, this show will kick so much ass. I get to see people I miss so much, rock out to the skeptics and signal the escape, finger-point my heart out (even though it won't be the same without alli oh!) cause girlll I'm all about youuuuu, meeting jrapp!, and possibly having a good night after the show. We'll see.
I'm wicked nervous about everything right now. I don't know what's going on, and if I can't go tonight, I might cry a lot.

So he needs to wake up. Now! I wish I hadn't woken up at 7, and I was still sleeping, so I wouldn't be bored and counting down the minutes all damn day.

AHHH

Oh well, I'll figure it out soon. If I can't go...I'll get over it I guess. Jrapp might be wicked mad at me though, haha.

(TWO THREE! JUST GOOOOOOOOOOOOO!)

allee_a_mazz @ 2006-02-02T18:53:00

2006-02-03T02:54:03Z

hkldjfl

allee_a_mazz @ 2006-02-02T10:41:00

2006-02-02T18:58:11Z

Thursday, February 2:

Only you know what's best for you, so don't be so quick to trust someone else's advice over your own instincts, no matter how assured they sound. Follow your own path and heed your own guidance.
---
sweet.

allee_a_mazz @ 2006-02-01T22:27:00

2006-02-02T06:27:44Z

I'm freaking the fuck out.

jrapp is my favorite.

2006-02-02T00:47:40Z

Venture311: i am getting drunk
allee a mazz: lucky boy
Venture311: be jealous
allee a mazz: you drink
allee a mazz: no way
allee a mazz: we can't be friends
allee a mazz: Im straightedge
Venture311: sucks for you
allee a mazz: ahaha
allee a mazz: I am jealous, by the way
Venture311: i was bringin something special up for you
Venture311: well for you and i
allee a mazz: I can't give in to peer pressure and compromise my standerds!
allee a mazz: psh, straightedge. yea.
Venture311: you can and will
allee a mazz: I might
Venture311: come on
allee a mazz: or...okay fine I will
Venture311: o a bring this all the way up from pa
allee a mazz: peer pressure works every time
Venture311: i know
allee a mazz: I hope you feel good about yourself! corrupting an innocent girl
Venture311: get the fuck out of here
Venture311: you will llove it
allee a mazz: how do you sleep at night.
Venture311: great
Venture311: ha ha ha
Venture311: yes
Venture311: that was a set-up
allee a mazz: haha yess
allee a mazz: NO
Venture311: that was great
----

So then I left jrapp a comment. And it was:

Hahaha our style is better than yours. So are our moves. Be jealous.
:P

"If I fail"--Cartel

2006-01-31T13:23:35Z

"its time to go, this is goodbye"
she said "does it ever get easier to live like this"
and kiss the cheek
well i can't kiss you anymore
and i, i would honestly love you now
but i would lovingly let you down

oh i have the hardest time resisting you
and oh if you
if you feel the same way, then how can we be friends?
he's right you know
we can't go on like this
and oh i try to give you everything
and if i fail well then i failed
but at least i gave you something

i could put my trust in giving up the heart
it makes the difference
and how can you afford to settle down
when i, i would promise to love you now
but i would lovingly let you down

oh i have the hardest time resisting you
and oh if you
if you feel the same way, then how can we be friends?
he's right you know, we can't go on like this
and oh i try to give you everything
and if i fail well then i failed
but at least i gave you something

it's better than silence, give me one good reason

it's better than silence
give me one good reason
to leave this in silence
no you don't have a good reason

if you feel the same way, then how can we be friends?
he's right you know, we can't go on like this
and oh i try to give you everything
and if i fail well then i failed
but at least i gave you something

it's better than silence
it's better than silence

you get what you get. you get what you deserve.

2006-01-31T10:01:52Z

~ABOUT YOU~
*Name: Alli
*Birthday: September 21, 1986
*Zodiac Sign: Virgo
*Boyfriend/Girlfriend's name (if applicable): Nope
*Best-friend(s): Janine, Panch, Jenny, Hayley
*School/College: Nope
*Occupation: Nope

~BESTS~
*Best compliment ever given to you: When he told me I was something else + explination. It was awesome.
*Best date: The beach date.
*Best day you've had in recent memory: New Years Eve was pretty bitchin'. So was the TGE show last weekend.
*Best emotion: Happiness.
*Best joke: Oh, I'm so bad with jokes. I'll fuck it up.

~FAVORITES~
*Color: Turquoise and orange, green.
*Ice-cream flavor: Vienna Mocha Chunk or Coffee Oreo.
*Scent: Halloween, or pavement after it rains in the summer.
*Shampoo: Whatever.
*Animal: Koalas and Donkeys
*Food: Sushi.
*Gun (we have please the NRA members): ...I don't know anything about guns.
*Cartoon: Family Guy and Aqua Teen
*Article of clothing: track jackets and zip up hoodies are the bomb.

~WHAT QUALITIES WOULD YOUR DREAM-PERSON POSSESS?~
*What type of clothing is most attractive on them? Guys look so hot in girls jeans and tight shirts. Ahhh.
*What color eyes? Any color.
*What color hair? Whatev.
*What height? Taller than me.
*What occupation? Don't care.
*What hobbies? Being a musician seems to be the boys who are always interested in me.
*What religious preference? Don't care.

~HYPOTHETICAL SITUATIONS~
*You're stranded in your car during an ice-storm. What one food would you choose to sustain you until you were rescued? What drink? -- Sushi and water.
*Somehow, for some unimaginable reason, you find yourself on a deserted island in the middle of the Pacific. You look to your left and see...what other only surviving victim of your crash? -- My mom.
*One of your friends has to die. Absolutely. And you have to pick. Which one shall meet their maker? -- Probably Kim. I wouldn't want her to die, but out of all my friends, she's been the biggest bastard lately.
*You're walking along the beach, when suddenly, you spot a Sprite bottle. But it's not ordinary Sprite bottle. You pick it up, rub the sand away, and wham! There's a Magic-Sprite bottle genie. What would your three wishes be? And would you send a letter thanking the Sprite company? -- 1) Honestly, I would wish for a million dollars, 2) To have an amazing voice, 3) To have more motivation than I do right now. And nah, I say fuck the sprite company.
*This question has two versions. For guys: Your wife is in labor with your first child, but it has come to the point where it is dangerous for them both to live and you have to choose which one to save. Who would it be? For girls: Who would you have him choose? The baby, obviously.

~OUT OF ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS, WHO IS THE MOST...~
*Annoying? Kim, cause she's been so unreliable and bitchy the past 2 weeks.
*Attractive? Jenny is a hot hottie.
*Adorable? Crystal :)
*Sly? He thinks he's sly.
*Sarcastic? All of my friends are wicked sarcastic.
*Emotionally deep? We all are.
*Poetic? Colin and Tom. I mean, they do write emo songs :P
*Musically talented? These Green Eyes/SIGNALtheESCAPE
*Athletically talented? Jeffro.
*Easily angered? Mark.
*Amusing? All of my friends amuse me.
*Likely to laugh at a bad joke? Who knows?
*Likely to be found in a bar during college? Haha all of us.
*Likely to be found in their dorm during college? Christina?
*Likely to be found in a bar after college? All of us.
*Likely to be found in a suit after college? I don't know...
*Likely to be married with three kids and living in the suburbs? Briana.
*Likely to be unmarried at the age of thirty? I don't know.

~WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...~
*Sex before marriage? I'm okay with it.
*Abortion? My body, my womb, my life, my choice.
*Same-sex marriages? Love is love. Fuck the haters.
*The usage of shortenings such as the letter "u" to replace "you" in computer language? SO annoying.
*Testing mascara on animals such as seals, camals, and llamas? (Related question: Did you just laugh hysterically at the mental picture you had of one of those animals wearing make-up?) No. I did not. And I think it's terrible.
*Dating someone a friend has previously dated? It's bad news, seriously, don't do it.
*The five-second rule? It really depends.
*Garden gnomes? I think they're really creepy.

Ahh! Why can't I sleep!?

2006-01-31T08:04:10Z

Y.o.u.]

//What's your name? Alli

//How old are you? 19

//When's your birthday? 9.21.86

//What color hair do you have? Dark brown/black/redish

//What color eyes do you have? Green

//How tall are you? 5'5

//Any piercings/tattoos? 16/2--find them.

//What's your star sign? Virgo.

//Are you straight/bi? I'm not sure.

[T.h.e. L.a.s.t. T.i.m.e. Y.o.u...]

//Slept? From 3-7:30 today.

//Ate something? I had a Strawberry special k granola bar a couple hours ago.

//Drank something? I'm drinking orange soda.

//Hugged someone? Panch, last night.

//Kissed someone? Brandon

//Cried? I have no idea.

//Bought something? A couple days ago.

//Laughed? Earlier tonight when Jenny and I were talking. We're a riot.

//Talked to someone you love? I talk to people I love every day.

//Missed someone? Of course.

//Took a shower? This morning.

//Had a serious talk with someone? Jenny and I have talks, but not pertaining to us. I haven't had a serious talk about myself or something that had to do with me in so long.

//Fought with someone? Panch, Saturday night I believe.

[Y.o.u.r. F.u.t.u.r.e.]

//What college do you plan on going to? I went to Marymount. Now I'm thinking about UCONN, Umass, SVA, or maybe a community college for 2 years since I'm broke and in debt.

//What do you want your major/minor to be? I want to double major in photography and writing, and I think I want to minor in philosophy.

//Do you plan on getting married? Eventually, I hope.

//If so, to who? I don't know, I'm 19.

//Where would you want to go on your honeymoon? I don't know, somewhere warm or maybe over to Europe. Greece is nice.

//How many kids do you want to have? I have NO clue.

//Where do you want to live? Somewhere warm, hopefully.

//What do you want your career to be? Photographer, journalist, music journalist, photojournalist. Something of the sort.

//What kind of car do you want? Right now I want another celica. Let's make that happen.

//What kind of house do you want? Who knows?

[F.a.v.o.r.i.t.e.s.]

//Stores? I like thrift stores, gap for jeans, guilty store is hollister, express, urban, etc.

//Tv Shows? Family Guy, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Stand up comedy shows

//Male singer? Tom and Colin

//Female singer? I love Kelly Clarkson. Say something, I dare you.

//Band? Co&Ca has my heart right now. So does Cartel.

//Actress? I hate this question.

//Actor? Johnny Depp

//Movie? High Fidelity/Pirates of the Caribbean

//Type of chocolate? Milk

//Song? The Higher--Histrionics, Cartel--Say Anything (Else), Burn this City

//Musical? Wicked/RENT are my favorite broadway plays

//Meal? Sushi.

//Soda? ORANGE.

//Alcoholic Beverage? Beer, red wine

//Fast Food Place? Taco Bell.

//Snack food? Granola

//Pizza toppings? Pineapple.

//Ice cream? Vienna Mocha Chunk or coffee oreo.

//Cereal? Life!

//Holiday? Halloween and Christmas.

//Color? Turquoise and orange, green.

//Candy? Gum

//Gum? Haha orbit bubblemint.

//Shoes? My cons or my warm "squirrel" boots

//Outfit? I don't know? Whatever I feel like wearing.

//Computer game? Theme Hospital.

//Board game? Candy Land <3

//Weather? Sunny, hot, but not too hot.

[T.h.e. L.a.s.t. P.e.r.s.o.n. Y.o.u...]

//Hugged? Panch

//Kissed? Brandon

//Talked to? bb!

//Sent a email to? Zach

//Said 'I love you' to? Jenny

//Got angry at? Haha

//Cried about? I don't cry over people anymore.

//Had a crush on? Oh my...

//Fought with? Panch

[R.a.n.d.o.m.]

//List 5 random things on your computer desk: Orange soda can, cell phone, cds, my glasses, a pack of cigarettes

//What are you wearing right now? booty shorts and a tank top. My room is HOT.

//What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? Whatever's in the shower.

//What are you listening to right now? Cartel--Burn this city

I like when Danielle does surveys

2006-01-31T07:48:00Z

TEN SONGS ON YOUR PLAYLIST
1. Cartel--Say Anything (Else)
2. Valencia--Que Sera Sera
3. Coheed & Cambria--Cuts Marked In The March Of Men
4. Plain White T's--Faster
5. Saves the Day--At Your Funeral
6. Straylight Run--The Tension and the Terror
7. Jack's Mannequin--Holiday from Real
8. Phantom Planet--Is this really happening to me?
9. La Guillotine--Throat
10. The Higher--Histrionics

NINE FAVORITES
1. Orange Soda
2. Red Wine
3. Beer
4. Singing
5. Photography
6. Being a retard with Jenny
7. Being happy
8. Writing
9. Strawberry Special K Granola Bars

EIGHT AMAZING PEOPLE
1. Janine
2. Panch
3. Jenny
4. Hayley
5. Stacey
6. Ari
7. Katie
8. Brandon

SEVEN CLOTHES BRANDS IN YOUR CLOSET
1. Gap
2. Hollister
3. American Eagle
4. Urban Outfitters
5. Abercrombie & Fitch (yea, I have a jean skirt and some shirts from there, deal with it)
6. Express
7. Limited

SIX THINGS YOU DID TODAY
1. Hung out with Brandon
2. Watched Tv for the first time in forever
3. Ate dinner with the fam
4. Hung out with my mom <3
5. Burned some PR CDs
6. Drank

FIVE BEST PLACES
1. Florida
2. Va Beach
3. Montreal & Quebec
4. Hayley's house
5. The Parthanon

FOUR THINGS YOU LAST BOUGHT
1. Cigarettes
2. Food
3. Coffee
4. A cell phone

THREE GOOD THINGS ABOUT LIFE
1. My friends
2. My family
3. Life in general

TWO RINGTONES ON YOUR PHONE
1. Kriss Kross--Jump
2. panic at the disco - I write sins not tragedies

ONE GOAL
1. Get money (which means job + car + apartment + woohoo!)

you're just jealous

2006-01-31T06:27:53Z

I love cartel
I love old friends
I love orange soda
and wine
I love strawberry special k granola bars
I love hee & lar for life
and tree & seaweed

I love life.

I hate not having a car. But once I do life is going to get 4790328490 times better than it already is :)
I am happy.

la la la la

2006-01-31T05:37:16Z

My day has been unbelievably boring. Basically I got two hours of sleep, I was FORCED and dragged out of bed by Brandon at 11 in the morning, only for him not to show up until 12:30. Lame. So he and I chilled, watched tv, he ate all the ice cream in the house, we spent some time on the deck, and then I was passing out hcore so he left around 3 or so. I fell asleep until 7:45 when Nicki woke me up for dinner, watched wife swap with Mom, smoked some cigarettes and chatted about where I could get a job, and since then I've pretty much been reading old lj's and remembering how funny shit used to be. Like when ice cream was melting all over my car when I got all the boys DQ over the summer, and had to drive from westbrook to greg's in madison, and it was an explosion of chocolate all over my car. Or when Zach and I disappeared from Greg's room, our bear...even though I can't remember the name we picked out... "I wanted CHICKEN!" "I THOUGHT YOU SAID FRENCH FRIES!" "NOOOO!" "GREG YOU SAID FRENCH FRIES" hahaha. Wendy's runs, working at friendly's, teenage romance, shows, everything was so fun. Things are good now, but things were GREAT back then. AlliO + Ari = BFFL drunken white board drawings, UCONN

"hi, I'm negro"
"hi...I'm Alli"
"no, it means I'm black"
"uh...it means I'm...white?"

Anyway. Panch and I were gonna hang out tonight, but I don't think we are anymore. He went to play pool with the boys, and I talked to him around 11:50 and he said he didn't know when he would be back. So I'm assuming I'm staying in tonight. Meh, no big deal. The life of Alli is a boring one. I'm okay with that.

3 days and counting!
and tonight concluded with...being slutty is a bad thing, and me not being slutty is a good thing. Hahaha, big hearts.

So...OH yea I wanted to do this fun thing that I found in Ari's lj from back in the day. Mhm. I'm so awesome.

bold the things that are true about you, replace the ones that arent bolded with things about yourself

01. I have a cell phone.
02. I'm obsessed with new things.
03. I'm the oldest
04. I hate shopping
05. I love earrings
06. I love wearing a lot of black eyeliner. (not a lot, but I do love wearing it)
07. I love beer.
08. I love the weekends.
09. I can't live without chapstick
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in Virginia
12. I save a lot of my money but spend a lot too
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I hate not having a job
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
17. I love Justin Timberlake
18. I have too much free time, and nothing to do with it.
19. I'm addicted to local shows
20. I am a person. (like many people are...)
21. My first kiss was at the Y with Zach Lewin, and it was adorable.
22. I want to go back to school already.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. My dreams are bizzare.
27. I'm not bi, but I'm not straight. It's kind of strange.
28. My room is in the basement.
29. I've seen She's All That at least 50 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love stand up comedy.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late. (even though I, myself, am always late)
34. I procrastinate.
35. Summer is amazing
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I had tried harder in school
39. I wish i wasnt so confused and that guys could just spell out what they want
40. I have a lot of drama.
41. Only my best friends know everything about me
42. I love my hair.
43. I barely ever fight with my parents
44. I love the beach.
45. I have had chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. Sometimes I have a hard time controlling my emotions.
48. I had a great new years eve.
49. I hate the show rich girls
50. I love my friends.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday
52. I can be very insecure sometimes.
53. I have had a broken bone.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I hate PCs. Laptops are my love.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious. (ALL the time)
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I love to dance.
60. I love to sing.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous very easily.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I hate Gavin Degraw. He was obsessed with my roomate.
65. I hate when I see animals getting hurt/abused.
66. I wish I never started eating meat again.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love playdough.
69. I am too forgiving.
70. I have the worst sense of direction.
71. I hated high school.
72. I have a talent of sweet talking my way out of things.
73. sometimes i push my limits when i drink. good thing i have fabulous friends
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I hate wicked skinny girls who think they're fat.
79. I don't know what I'm doing.
80. I'm really easy going.
81. I hate liars.
82. I like comfy pants.
83. Bam Margera is AWESOME.
84. I love the smell of fresh laundry.
85. I love my family.
86. I HATE getting shots
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I hate the feeling of failure.
90. Im really stubborn
91. I get bored easily
92. Im too generous for my own good
93. I still act like a little kid sometimes.
94. Above all, I despise dishonesty.
95. I can stay on the computer forever.
96. I love music.
97. I wish I was more motivated
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone.

Haha

2006-01-30T19:08:38Z

January 30, 2006
cosmic tidbit
Yesterday was the New Moon in Aquarius, signaling that it is time to begin a new project and move forward on any plans. Aquarius is the zodiac sign of ideas, so mind games in love are likely.

Nahhhh really? :P